I still feel sick, I get this intense nausea sometimes and so I haven’t been eating so much. Just breakfast and dinner. But even that’s a struggle. I just don’t feel hungry at all and I just feel sick and the sight of food makes me feel sick which considering my past relationship with anorexia isn’t a good path to go down. But I think the nausea should get better. The only problem I’ve found is that prozac is doing what the zoloft did and speeding up the mood cycle. I’ve gone from depressed to manic back to depressed throughout the day. In the night I went from depressed to mixed and then suffered from flashbacks and dissociation and then when I finally did manage to sleep, I had nightmares and then I felt too sick to even move when I woke up.
In other news, I have to go to school tomorrow and get my folders. Chemistry, English and maths. Which is a pain but if I want to pass. I need to revise.
I’m also wearing a short sleeve tshirt. First one in a long time, I mean it is a hollow victory as I still do self harm but I’m glad I am wearing one. Even if it is just pajamas.