Want to apologise for the lateness of this blog. It’s been one of those nights. I fell asleep for an hour, had a dissociative episode, woke up, fell asleep, had a nightmare and ths 6am was born. So that sucks. I really do want to cry at the fact this keeps happening especially considering the fact that I’m going into mania – but that might explain why it’s so vivid. The nightmare.
Anyway, so I did end up going to the sleep clinic because I made my dad decide and basically all he did was confirm I had insomnia and said that I was “a shallow sleeper” and a “short sleeper” – woah. Like I hadn’t worked it out myself but I was getting into the high phase so I ended up walking out just so I could get a picture of this:
Went to school. School was okay, except we saw this picture and just…
So yes, psychiatrist. Well I am sort of hypomanic so I was in the obsessive organising state, so I was organising the box of toys. The bipolar and psychosis specialist was there too. So I had to go through the whole story again which annoyed me but I don’t really mind but essentially what it came down to was they put me on risperdal 1mg but the dose goes 1/2 a tablet morning and evening for a week. If no problems then take 1 tablet in the morning and one in the evening. I have to see the bipolar and psychosis specialist again without my psychiatrist because she wants to focus on the voices and I think it was late May but I can’t remember the exact appointment date and in the mean time I have to keep a mood diary. I was going to start it Tuesday but I can’t be bothered so I’ll start it today – it has to have: mood, sleep and hallucinations.
Now as for the risperdal, I was looking up side effects and the ones I think there is a 99% chance of getting is headaches and stomach aches just because both are so hyposensitive to change. But I have to watch as these can cause mania symptoms, difficulty sleeping and increased appetite among other things. I start the medication this evening because the pharmacy doesn’t get a shipment of them in until 10am and I will be at school.