You lose your friends. That’s the main thing. The people you thought that cared. The ones you thought would always be there for you will leave and you realise that you just wasted your time on them and that actually they are the most selfish people because the only reason they stuck around is so at the end of it they can say “see, told you what I said would help” and just really take unjustified glory for your recovery. If any of you have friends you even think are like that, get rid of them asap. You’ll be better off for it.
To answer Amy Queau‘s comment: “What is your plan? To fight alone?”
I haven’t got a ‘plan’ as such so much as a self destructive streak. I think that’s the best way to describe it. Also, honey(ies), I’ve been fighting alone for 6 years it’s just this particular fight I’ve been fighting for over a year so yes. Fighting alone is best.
So for the people who have now left me alone (and it’s obviously not all you lovelies – just a particular few) now that my treatment has halted – thanks. Thanks for showing me not to waste time on your selfish asses.
Hope you are all having a wonderful night.