I went to the psychiatrists mixed episode but whilst waiting, I got up to hypomania which I can control to a degree but when I went in my legs were shaking and I couldn’t stop them because the energy and agitiation manifests itself into physical problems and usually I direct it to my legs because they’re under the table and no one can see it but when my psychiatrist saw it not only did it further prove my truthfulness about these episodes but he suggested a stress ball.
As for zoloft, I stay off it and instead he’s going to try antipsychotic medication because he thinks we “should try it from the other side” which I think means since we can’t attack moods, we attack the psychotic symptoms. But before he can give it to me he has to get a blood test done (at the GP since there isn’t the facilities there) and I have another appointment for the 9th of April and it takes a week for the results of the blood test to come through so if I get it done next week or something that should be okay because my psychiatrist said he has to fax the list of things he wants checked and from the wikipedia page I looked at and what he said it’s stuff like cholesterol, white blood cell count and stuff like. He said even if I went on mood stablizers, I’d need the blood test done anyway. I don’t mind blood tests, I’ve had about 100 in my life time. My dad’s a baby though. He almost passed out when I had this one done for my operation a few years ago. To be fair, I didn’t have the usual three small test tubes, I had about six done but ever since whenever I had blood taken I tell my dad to get the hell out of the room because he puts me on edge with his fainting.
I get that it’s a week but I have to wait until 9th April? That’s the Tuesday I go back after a two week holiday and that two week holiday is in two weeks. Four weeks for an appointment but I suppose to be fair, if he’s telling the truth I should be hearing from the bipolar and psychosis specialist this week and have an appointment in the next two and I suppose it makes sense that he has to hear back from her on the best course of treatment and make a plan and then there are other people in line for appointments. When put that way, a month doesn’t seem so bad.