My dad had to go visit a friend. His daughter is studying something in psychology and mental health, though I can’t remember as I wasn’ t really listening. I told her what happened yesterday and said that is sounded like depersonalisation. She asked me lots of questions, some of which I remember.”Did you feel like the people were somewhat robotic?”
“Yeah, I suppose, they just felt really fake and I touched them and it freaked me out”.
Was one of the questions.
She then went on to explain that depersonalisation can be a part of bipolar disorder and that I should google it to understand it better. So I did.
This is what i found on wikipedia:
Depersonalization (or depersonalisation) is an anomaly of self-awareness. It consists of a feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation.Subjects feel they have changed, and the world has become vague, dreamlike, less real, or lacking in significance. It can be a disturbing experience, since many feel that, indeed, they are living in a “dream”.Though degrees of depersonalization and derealization can happen to anyone who is subject to temporary anxiety/stress, chronic depersonalization is more related to individuals who have experienced a severe trauma or prolonged stress/anxiety. It is also a prominent symptom in some other non-dissociative disorders, such as anxiety disorders, clinical depression, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder,obsessive-compulsive disorder and migraine.
So I have an anxiety disorder and well as we all know bipolar disorder is on the cards. Now I do also have migraines BUT I would never count them severe enough to cause this sort of problem. Migraines are not the cause. But anxiety disorder and bipolar disorder, maybe one fuels the other. Now it says that “chronic depersonalization is more related to individuals who have experienced a severe trauma or prolonged stress/anxiety” well, if you have an anxiety disorder you’re more likely to suffer prolonged anxiety; obviously otherwise it wouldn’t be an anxiety disorder.
Now, I’m obviously pretty desperate for answers and I know that you shouldn’t self diagnose and I’m not. I’m just saying that depersonalization is the nam of what happened yesterday and it’s not depersonalisation in it’s own disorder, it’s depersonalization as part of one of my other disorders. Now, PTSD has been mentioned more than one to me and depersonalization according to a quick google search (I know, look how through I am) can be part of it. So since one of the things I’ve been diagnosed with has it has a possibility and bipolar disorder, a massive likelihood has it as part of it… it could be part of that.
But what causes it in people? With or without other disorders.
Other neurobiological studies involving positron emission tomography (PET) measurements of glucose (sugar) metabolism in different areas of the brain found that patients with depersonalization disorder appear to have abnormal functioning of the sensory cortex. The sensory cortex is the part of the brain that governs the senses of sight, hearing, and perceptions of the location of one’s body in space. These studies indicate that depersonalization is a symptom that involves differences in sensory perception and subjective experiences.
So, I don’t know what I make of all this. But I think that at least this blog is useful for information.