I think one thing we can all agree on is that if I get diagnosed as bipolar, I am a rapid cycler.I’ve gone from a mixed episode to mania C. I feel like it’s such a contradiction but it’s true but it makes me and everyone confused. So I’m happy. I have a lot of energy but I make sense. I cleaned my room up a bit, put up some posters I have been meaning to put up and I just have this buzz.
The problem I think with mixed episodes is to go from the best most awesome feeling of your entire life to go to the worst pretty fast is hard. It sucks. It’s just a fast come down and I think the body thinks mixed episodes lessen the fall but the don’t they’re just as hard. Maybe even more so. Did you know most people with bipolar commit suicide in the mixed episode? (rather than in any other episode is what I mean not that majority of bipolar people who have mixed episodes will kill themselves). So it kinda sucks. But now I don’t know what to do with myself. If I was depressed I’d be all tired and lying in bed and just dead. I wanna do something. But that?
One of the things I could do is write a blog I’ve been meaning to write for a while, I also have RE homework so I shall write said blog and then do my RE homework and then we’ll see what I feel like doing afterwards.
Ah, yes the blog… I feel like it deserves a new blog though, a fresh clean one. So watch this space for a blog I will entitle it: “Functioning”